Chelsi LeBarre
What makes you feel proud?
My babies. Being their mother, seeing their brilliance and awe and wonder. To see them shine so brightly makes me immensely proud that I get a front-row seat and to have the divine appointment to guide them along the beginning of their journey. I’m also proud of myself. I’ve lived through things that broke me and I put myself back together and made beauty from the ashes I was left in.
What keeps you up at night?
The state of the world we live in and what it will be for my children as they grow, but especially as they take over. Am I selfish for bringing new life into such a Dumpster fire? Will they be seen for the content of their character rather than the color of their skin? Will they be able to really understand how much I love them and believe in them?
What’s been the biggest obstacle in your life so far?
Learning to cope and live through subsequent seasons of postpartum depression, especially dealing with postpartum depression and seasonal depression simultaneously while caring for a newborn and a toddler. I’m still shaking off some of the vestiges from that season, but thanks to my support system, meds, a whole lot of prayer and therapy, I know I will make it and be able to use my experience to help other moms who will walk through this journey too.
One year from today, how do you hope you’re different?
A year from now, I hope I have shed some of the weight of expectations—both outward and inward. I hope that I have created a balance that works for me and that I am unapologetic at holding the boundaries that are necessary for my and my family’s health and well-being. I hope that I have a little more patience, move a little more slowly and make room to enjoy life as much as I can.